Fulfilling a Dare

Is that August that I see peeking round the the corner? Why I do believe it is. We'll return to our regularly scheduled programming next week since way too much and not enough happened this week.

Courtesy of last week's image, I was strong armed [though it felt more like blackmailed] by R into publicly answering the question "what do I miss the most and least about sex" since I've been celibate for a while [once you get past 6 months you stop counting]. R, karma is a biatch and she will get you back for this.

I miss ... [the safest thing to admit] the fun and free workout. Yes I said workout. If you don't believe its a workout have at it twice a day for the next month and let me know how much your cardio improves... even the slow and sexy lovemaking gets you out of gym time. For those inclined to break out the karma sutra that's a full body workout in case you were wondering.

I do not miss rug burn. I do however miss the comparing of burn marks afterwards. I really should have bought stock in Neosporin considering how much of it I used at one point in time.

Now that I've embarrassed myself beyond measure, have a good weekend folks!

Tuesday Beat: Joe Thomas - Get Crunk Tonight / Table for Two

These are my jams ... we're taking it all the way back to My Name is Joe


Table for Two (umm you might want a pair of headphones for the beginning)

Random Beat: Martin Kember - Driving Myself Insane

Living One's Truth

Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote: "It is easy in the world to live after the world's opinion; it is easy in solitude to live after our own; but the great man is he who in the midst of the crowd keeps with perfect sweetness the independence of solitude."

I have gone back and forth as to whether or not I wanted to make this a public post. I'm making it public, but I've cleaned it up and removed the specific situs that were in the original post.

I would like to live my truth in its entirety but it is something that I know I probably won't. My current truth is more of an amalgamation of my truth, that of the rest of my family and that of the people in my life. There are things that I want for myself that I know will fracture my family if I choose them so I walk a very fine line... and it's not just my sexuality that I am talking about.

There are things that I want to do that I don't know if I ever will because I will lose the support of the people around me. I know because I get to hear them go on about people who have done what I want to do. Sounds stupid for me to be listening to them right? If I had more of a spine I would break off these relationships with folks and go on and do what I want but it is not that easy is it?

I keep telling myself that I can deal with the middle ground that I am on, but if I am honest with myself for a moment I can see that it is taking its toll on me. I am seeing the cracks and something has got to give.
I do own up to my part in creating this situation. Some of the things I should have nipped in the bud when they first came up instead of trying to find a compromise. I knew straight out of the gate that I did not want to do what was recommended but to maintain peace in my life I chose to go along with a variation of the plan. Can you say peace now hell later.

Now don't get me wrong, there are people in my life that I know will have my back come what may. They've been with me during the highs, the lows and the what was I thinking moments. So when I do decide to finally grow a pair, I know that I will not be alone.


Quote was taken from How to Live Your Truth by Amanda Ford

Weekly Rundown

Hello me hearties... pray tell the summer is treating you well.

• I spent 2 glorious weeks playing aunt full time and I must say I am getting better and better with my niece. We bonded and even created our own little games. Leaving her to return to the Chi was hard. 
• There has been some movement on the case of the librarian. I will not say what lest I jinx it. I should be able to give you a detailed rundown on the matter in 2 weeks.
• I am in the middle of a wedding marathon. Could people please ease off the wedding pedal. I now feel obligated to bring a date when I go to dinner with friends.
• Recently, I discovered the joy that is the telenovela, Spanish soaps in case you have never heard the term. The over acting does it for me. I have watched the train wreck that is the Amando - Julia - Mariana storyline on Las Aparicio everyday for the past 4 weeks. Other than the over acting, I figure this is the fastest way to learn spoken Spanish. The fact that the Aparicio sisters are easy on the eyes has nothing to do with it.
• I am an avid reader of several blogs. I was pleasantly surprised to discover that 2 of my fellow bloggers [Foxy and SweetT] are now dating. If you haven't stumbled upon their blogs I must inquire as to what you have been reading.
• Speaking of bloggers a close friend of mine has taken up the blogging mantle. She is a writer so her blog reads a lot better than mine. Swing on by if you find yourself with a moment to spare.
• And finally I would like to wish Sheena a happy relocation. She is moving from Japan to Australia this weekend.

Today's  photo is sponsored by "Extended celibacy is not a good idea."

Tuesday Beat: Heather Headley - In My Mind

Of new under garments and getting laid

Took a trip to spend some QT with the family and on my ride home today I overheard
"I suppose I should go out and get new underwear if I'm going to sleep with him". [2 young ladies were sitting behind me and evidently did not have indoor voices]

Can someone explain this phenomenon to me? Why do people go out and get new under garments before they shag someone new? Is the old stuff out of fashion? I know folks who do this religiously and it has got to add up financially if you date a few folks over the course of the year. Also comes the question of are you buying what you think the other person will like or what you like because they can be 2 completely different things.

The reason that I ask is that I personally do not see the point of getting new under garments if you are planning to shag someone new. I buy new stuff for me.

A question that comes up on occasion when I go shopping with female friends and we make the "quick" stop at Victoria's is if I rock boxers? Simple answer is it depends. My arse's hierarchy for under garments is Jockey, Hanes, FTL. I prefer the ladies line of skivvies from Jockey. They are muy cómodo and my arse has written several testimonials to that effect. Note no secrets from Vickie. My theory is anything is sexy if the person wearing it loves it.

So comment below, tweet back, fb message, whatever you have. I am really curious about the undergarment phenomenon.

Tuesday Beat: Big & Rich - Lost in this moment

Piano & Violin cover of the song. The original song can be found here. This one goes out to my future wife.

Tuesday Beat: Frankie J - Long Drive Home

Weekly Rundown

Long weekend ahead. Hope y'all have a lot of fun activities planned. I have  my niece to look forward to... I get to see her tomorrow and I can't wait.

• Pride last week was a hoot. I volunteered and actually got to walk for part of the route. I had my pride on blast since I am out to the people that need to know. I haven't felt this free in quite a while. <-- Chely Wright before the parade kicked off
• Sadly no librarian edition since I had some studying to do for an exam for a class that I enrolled in to use up some of my spare time.
• The cooking adventures continue. I had hoped to make some pasta today but ended up having to present myself for an interview. I will get a crash course in Thai food and another in Desi cooking later in the month. I am expanding my cooking repertoire and the woman that lands me will be the secondary beneficiary since I cook for myself first and foremost.
• I recently discovered Las Aparicio, a Mexican soap and have had to marathon the episodes. Finding sub'd full episodes was a pain so I am watching the sub'd Julia & Mariana storyline on YT. scootgirl100 is my source in case you are interested in taking a peek at it. Ep23 has a beautiful monologue by Mariana on how hard it is to be gay. If nothing else watch that.
• If you want to earn your brownies points, sing a song in a different language and know it's meaning ... case in point, during pride the Filipino gays & allies pride float was bumping the BEP song Mare. I knew the Tagalog & English words and meanings and the cop who was next to me was duly impressed since people tend to just sing stuff that they don't know the meaning of. He spoke Tagalog. I know a few classical Bollywood songs that have gotten me into the good graces of a Desi lass or two... I do make an effort.

World cup randomness
I can't believe my beloved Brasillians and Ghanaians are out of the tourney. My hope lies in Spain and Argentina. A lot of people's brackets have essentially gone to hell in a hand basket.

Happy 4th of July!