Half Penny Post: Weekly Rundown

Week of insanity:

• I had finals this week & 2 group presentations & 2 papers. Haven't had a half nights sleep since my sleep marathon last Friday.
• Last weekend I got bona fide schooled by a website!
• Weather was beautiful yesterday and the flooding that ensued meant lots of flooded basements this morning.
• We're practicing visualization .... watch me do big things.
• Job hunting run down - I was turned down for 2 jobs this week and invited to interview for one. Yay!
• I just saw photos of my niece Nosa ... can you say strong family resemblance from our end?
• I'm staring down turning 26 and it's beginning to hit me that I ain't no spring chicken nomore. I'm more of an early summer chicken.
• My ex from way back when, and we're talking some 7 odd years ago, got married and just had a son.
• Zimbabwe's cholera epidemic is really kicking into high gear in a very bad way. According to the World Health Organization, some 83,000 people have contracted cholera and 3,800 have died from it.
• I think single is the way to go most of the time, but I'm discovering going out with friends and their mates means 3rd wheelitis kicks in.
• While I'm not vying to lose weight, I've managed to keep it steady inspite of my crazy eating habits. I'm working my way to that 2 pack. Come summer we'll have hit 4 pack status.

Ty

Half Penny Post: Drained

Do you ever get up and just feel drained. I'm talking emotionaly, physically, everything, just plain drained. I'm coming off of the 2 craziest weeks (weekly rundown will be later today) of the year thus far and I am drained. My body is bitching at me about neglect and my mind is calling it quits. I just wanna lay in bed all day, but that is not possible. The rain is probably not helping. Aaaaaargh.

This quarter I was ambitious and almost bit off more than I could chew. My school and workload combined were not thought out properly and I've pushed myself more than I should have. I've had more tension headaches over the last month than I did all of last quarter. I rarely succumb to a full blown case of the cold / flu but last week it levelled me out. I've really gotta get that work - life - school balance. I'm not a fan of meds and so I've had to come up with alternate ways of easing the headaches. Most of the time it comes down to going to the famed happy place. In most instances it's the beach in Key West. A hot shower also helps loads.

When I get home tonight, I'm turning off my phone watching tv. I've DVRed a lot of stuff in the last 2 weeks that I want to watch. So tonight we relax and recharge batteries with TV, tea, some pizza and a Cadbury's Flake.

Half Penny Post: Weekly Rundown

Tis Friday.... hugs all around. Tis the weekend of Mardi Gras parties. I have a cold and think I'll be home recouperating. This has got to be the oddest cold I've ever had. It's all in my head and my inner ear hurts like the dickens.

With that said here comes the rundown:

• Happy 1st anniversary to The Queer African. It's hard to believe we've been at it for a year.
• My vision board is beginning to take shape nicely. I'm putting up things that I want to attract into my life.
• Work's getting into high gear. Got a website migration coming up and that will be fun.
• School's putting metatarsal to posterior but I shall prevail. Got 3 papers due this coming week and 2 group presentations.
• I'm appreciating being queer more and more each day. On AE there is are two threads in the forums on queer africans. If you are queer and African stop by and contribute. They are here and here.
• I'm an avid follower of the Kubatana blogs and they have been giving a running commentary on the situation in Zimbabwe. Two of my favorites this week are 'One cannot push an immobile bus from inside' and 'Where are the women'. The article 'Fight for a fresh elections' is also worth a read and features my favorite line "If the engine is defective, the car can never move."
• A new episode of Cherry Bomb is up. The title is Truth or Truth and it is probably my favorite episode thus far. Glo's facial expressions were hilarious. As I mentioned in my comment on the episode itself, I wonder if Glo and Nikki are together. They are awfully chummy / close and Nikki kept looking at her during some of the more intimate questions. One of the questions was would you give up sex and masturbation for 6 million dollars. I had to give some thought to this one. I think on a separate post I'm going to answer some of the questions. We'll see.
• BTW anyone ever played a game of Truth or Strip. If not you've got to give it a try. It makes for an interesting night if things are slow with you and your boo.

Have a good weekend!

Ty

Half Penny Post: Job search week of Feb 20

I think I'm going to document my job search as a way of maintaining accountability. My needing to post something will force me to avoid slacking as a post of I did nothing is just not good for morale. So tentatively I'll post on Wednesdays.

So this week :

• I attended a job fair and made 6 good contacts. 2 might actually pan out into internships for the Summer.
• I met a gentleman who gave me the name of his company contact for a Business Continuity vendor so I need to follow-up on that tonight.
• I met with my former professor who had pointers on where I need to be looking as my field is a niche market. (Better odds for internship selection - problem is there are wayyyyy fewer internships in this field.)
• My resume got a full face lift.
• Attended a goal setting workshop.

Ty

Random Post: Beyonce Ego

This song ... is my theme song for today :).

Half Penny Post: Questions answered

I'm attending to questions so:

What do I think of the new Prime Minister?

I think he sold out. Getting into bed with the Devil is not the way to get the Devil out of power especially if he still has main control of the police, secret servcie and army. Tsvangirai's aide was arrested just the other day on charges of "treason" dating back to 2005. The infighting among the president's homies is a sign that things could get very ugly before things get better. I will admit my biases in the matter of the new Unity government and cede that you will probably get a more detailed and unbiased response elsewhere.

How do I like my new do?

I can't seem to stop running my hands over my head. It feels naked. I do love it though. With the new do I've made some interesting discoveries:

• A comb / brush is needed on the regular
• I can dry my hair in less than 10 seconds
• None of my woollen hats fit right. I am planning to wash em in hot water to get some shrinkage.
• I look like my passport photo now and it was taken 9 years ago.

What is my area of expertise?

I am tech support by initial training as well a web developer (I take the proposed look from a designer and turn it into code). I am a self taught Joomla CMS developer and build sites based on it. I have been studying Business Continuity / Disaster Recovery, Project Management and Information Asurance and Security Design for the last year and a half.

Am I out?

Well as out as is permissible. Most people out here know of my appreciation of the female form. I am out at work as well which is nice. I no longer play the pronoun game and that more or less puts it out there. My fb account states my interest in women and stuff posted eg photos points in that direction. My mother's side suspects it. Noone on my father's side, father included, knows.

My remedy for getting over an ex?

Time. I know it's a cliche but time helps a LOT. No rebounds, no one nighters, and exercise. Nothing quite says I'm over you like check out the hot bod that you passed up on (yes I am that petty at times).

Any questions: post in comments, email or fb me. Ty

Addend: It took me 2hrs 47 minutes to complete the application for YPP. It's now in so we wait... You have got to be a trooper to work your way through a 3 hour job application and this was with my using copy and paste as much as the fields would let me. I have a good feeling about it though.

Trifecta Post Dos

Today

... my heart is whole

it is brimming with love waiting to be shared

I am happy and content

and find it hard to believe

that I was once in such a dark place

my heart while not encased in ice

is behind an electric fence

with motion sensors around it

your legacy

I see you and it's okay

we can hang out now and

I see you like one of my other friends

I am now open to love but have a more

extensive background check

your legacy

Recently I realised that

I had finally let you go

and being free of the extra

luggage felt fabulous

There is probably some residual

bitterness but I wont let it follow

me into the next relationship

I am smart, sexy, spiritual and

very much deserving of the love

of another ...

Half Penny Post: Weekly Rundown

Hey all,

Tis been a week of ups and downs and here's the recap:

• Warm weather on Tuesday made my week.
• Zimbabwe has a new Prime Minister, and on his day of installation, the phones actually worked (not so much the day after).
• I have built my site and should be sending it live tomorrow at 6pm. It's more of a portfolio and it's very basic right now.
• I am trying to get into the Young Professionals Program with the African Development Bank. You should see the program application. I called it an evening at the 90 minute mark. It's to be continued. I have been going back and forth about staying in the US after graduation. My current thought is that if I stay all good if I get a good job elsewhere all good as well. I just need to be in a place that, among other things, is gay friendly. I am going to try and avoid the closet.
• I am hitting up job fairs and networking events as if it was my third quite possibly fourth job. I had the Joomla CMS webdevelopers monthly meeting and made a few contacts. I've got a Winter job fair this coming week so we're brushing up those resumes.
• Lovers and Friends Ep 5 was finally put up, after I was mad tired of stalking the site to see it.
• Jenn and Dee put up a vlog and it might be just me, but it seemed to lack that camaraderie that we're used to. Must be mid-terms putting metatarsal to posterior.
• And finally, I cut my locs this morning and am now rocking a brush cut. I seem to have lost 10 pounds in the process.

Love & Peace

Ty

Trifecta Post Uno

This is a 3 part post due to time constraints. It might not make sense to you but bear with me. I need to get it out of me onto paper as I continue to work towards a more positive countenance. This blog is really the best therapy there is for me.

The past:

You hurt me

in a way that I did not know was possible

up until that point in time

I did not understand what people meant when they said

I could have killed her with my bare hands

I am not a violent person

but in that moment you brought out

a side of me that I did not know

I walked away from you

because violence

is never an answer

I caught the train

and forced myself to forget you

but how do you forget someone who

disregards the heart she holds in her hands

I walked away and kept walking

and slowly began to heal

I regrew my heart

one cell at a time

and now ...

Half Penny Post: Beautiful day

T'was the warmest day this side of winter, and all were out and about.

It really was a lovely day. The weather was in the sixties and I ran all my errands on foot. I made a bread run and walked to the CVS that is 2 train stops from my house. That I had the day off was the extra cherry on my sundae.

*sigh*

Lovers and Friends Episode 5 is up and running and who saw the 2nd last scene coming?

I've been trying to get a hair trim for the last couple of days and it has not been an easy task. I am picky about who shears my noggin so I have one person who is allowed to trim the locs and another who tightens em. The cutter has been in and out of the shop and is therefore nigh impossible to catch. One of these days I'm really hoping to catch him as my ends are in need of a trim.

Half Penny Post: Weekly Rundown

Tis Friday yet again... how fast time moves. The weather is warmer (at least for the next 24 hours) them it's back to the regularly scheduled programming.

This week:

• I watched The Secret and am fascinated by the concept. The Law of Attraction is one that I had not given serious thought to. I have now taken to placing my order with the universe. I'm putting a lot more stuff out into the universe. I am focusing on wealth building instead of debt-free.
• I have started a thankful / greatful thoughts book. Every morning I write down what I am thankful for.
• I've taken up exercising in the mornings ( a quick jaunt on the elliptical trainer). I woke up one day and discovered that I had developed love handles. I don't need those hush puppies as I'm not seeing / potentially seeing anyone who might have a need to "hang onto them".
• I am working on changing my mindset. I need to see what's around me in a different light. The challenge is to bust open my preconceived notions about people and situations.
• I got my ass whooped by a Joomla MYSQL database. For the non techies know that my ego was bruised by software.
• I heard that we are getting episode 5 of Lovers and Friends on Sunday so keep an eye out for that.
• Tune in tomorrow night Feb 7, for U-People which is premering on Logo.
• Zimbabwean parliament has cleared the way for a unity goverment. Tsvangirai is to become Prime Minister. I could honestly care less about that. What I want to know is how is he planning to handle the cholera crisis, the education crisis, the health crisis, hell all the crises.
• We are still waiting on my mother's paperwork. My mother is however in good spirits this week so it's ok.
• I went to visit my car. We got very well acquainted. I got to sit in it and envision myself out on Lakeshore drive taking an afternoon drive. I could also see myself on the interstate going through the toll booths and getting ready to haul ass. I have decided that for my 28th birthday (two years from now) I'm buying myself an Audi R8. It's a mere $145,000 so it shouldn't be a problem. I want it in Phantom Black Pearl with Carbon Sigma side blades. 19" 5 arm cast alloy wheels. Fine Napa Leather in Tusan brown interior, Bang & Olufsen Sound System, Audi navigation plus and the Alcantara headliner in black. It's a 4.2 liter v8 FSI so you'll here me coming but might be hard pressed to get a good look at me as I ride by. I have decided to name the car La Contessa aka the Countess. I was going to give it a more masculine name but the curves on that baby made me reconsider.

Teacah Tolerance!

Ty